Experience

The famous saying "experience is the best teacher" is something I truly concur with.

Experience teaches us so much, you truly learn and derive so many lessons from a situation only after experiencing it. Thats just how we are as humans, I guess we are wired that way. We relate and understand better if only we have experience bagged behind.

When I was younger, i never truly appreciated the little things,

like I always thought I was appreciative and a nice family member and friend, but I really wasn't. I took so much for granted and I had to leave home to grow, to experience life outside the bubbly privileged life I was living. It took living outside my country to appreciate my life and everyone in it, it took independency to force me to grow, it took experience to allow me to appreciate and understand what I have.

When I was little, my sister who is actually my aunt but she's like my mum but she's a few years older than me to be my aunt or mum so she is my sister. Anyway, she always use to tell me that family meant everything, she values family so much and she's always been such a selfless being. But honestly, I never really understood when she said that, i mean I said it as well a-times but never meant it or truly understood it but now her words are my famous words.

"Family means everything to me ".

Waking up on eid morning, whilst the house is packed, decorated and everyone is just rushing to dress up to make eid prayer. My dad who gets ready first every year without fail sits outside waiting and after 30 minutes, he screams " whoever is ready, lets go, I am leaving", and then there is more chaos, veils are being thrown, my other aunt is screaming ' sen Popa dem na deh " and my mum doing the finishing touches of her 'musor'.

Five minutes later, we all rush into the car annoyed whilst my dad mocks me and siblings on how we cant even walk in heels.

That morning rush every eid is what I crave for so much all these past eids away from home, a full house filled with noise and conversations is what my heart yearns for,

the multiple fights, arguments, the makeups, debates, and just the pure bliss is what I miss.

Being so far from my family and all my closest friends, has made me appreciate them so much and the memories we had, it just made me value connections, interactions and every moment so much.

I miss the little moments, they don't ever matter until you dont have them anymore. I had to experience not having my big family with me, I had to experience growing and deciding things on my own, and I am glad for it. I am glad that I am on this path, experiencing this, because it has given me so much growth, so much appreciation of everyone and everything in my life.

PS- wrote this just before the WinterABC challenge started, been busy today and its 11:37pm and couldn't skip posting today. So here you go, hope you enjoy it. xoxo

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"And truly we plan but Allahs plan is always the best."