Alone

Somedays I feel lost,

there are days where I feel like a burden to those closest to me,

A-times I blame my existence, a-times I blame my sensitivity

and I don't know what the problem is,

but my brain and heart cannot simply accept the world as it is,

it's selfish!

I live in a selfish world

so sensitivity cannot be a way out for me,

softness is not what this world demands of me

selflessness is what I offer and that's not reciprocal.

I am tired of being hurt,

tired of being misunderstood,

tired of receiving less than I give

I am tired of caring for a world that does not care of my existence.

So I am choosing me from today,

choosing my existence,

choosing my goals, my dreams

I am choosing my happiness over yours.

Today it's me over you all,

taking care of myself first for a change.