Hey!
As salamu alaykum lol
Instead of giving you all the multiple reasons why I suddenly disappeared, which if we were to compact it all into one big reason it would equate to one thing; "school"
To sum up, this Hadith explains how I have felt these past months
"And Ahmad narrated (10560) that Abu Hurayrah said: The Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “The Hour will not begin until time passes quickly, so a year will be like a month, and a month will be like a week, and a week will be like a day, and a day will be like an hour, and an hour will be like the burning of a braid of palm leaves.”
Time went by so fast and some days or months have been a blur but alhamdulilah. We are here, striving, growing & consistency is still something I am struggling with,
but
here I am, showing up.
Below is a poem I wrote sometime this year in class.
What if today I spoke,
what if today I made myself visible in a world that refuses to grant us easy access to any visibility.
What if today I decided that I am visible
that I matter & I need to care for "I"
because who else will?
What if today, I genuinely smile back,
laugh with all my heart without fear,
without any doubts or worries crippling me
What if I too could spread my wings,
speak with my chest
with joy and confidence seeping through each word I utter
What if ..
what if one day, I too could speak, walk, live with confidence without anxiety creeping in every step of my journey.
Just what if I could too.
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